Tuesday, July 07, 2009

Taking that long-pending break

Cool, seems like I'm going to take the first real vacation in probably 3 years. It also marks 5 years since I've moved to Chennai. It's amazing that most of the time I've been in Chennai, I've spent chasing something, rather than enjoying what I have. No, I don't say that with bitterness, but rather surprise. The journey has been totally worth it of course. Things have been good, bad but never a dull moment. It's mostly been super hectic too.
Finally, I think the time has come to kickback a bit. I'm happy with what I've achieved so far, though a lot of things haven't gone exactly according to plan. I've realized a lot of false goals I was chasing, and cut back. I've realized that nothing really matters except being true to yourself (I know it's the most tiresome cliche, but I mean it, I forgot that lesson and learnt it the hard way).
No matter how much money you make, or how far you go, you can never escape the harshest judge of your character - yourself. At least, it's always been true for me. And now I think, I've pretty much reached whatever false goals I felt I had to reach - if there are some left over, I guess I no longer care about them. My inner judge tells me it's time to chase something real this time, something that gives me real happiness, and if some money comes out of it, all the better.
I have a fair idea of what I should do, but of course I have no idea how to go about doing it. I have some plans, but they're still on the table. But I guess it all starts with a simple vacation - I'm taking a week off, spend some time with my old friends, visit parents, probably take a trip to a hill station or something. After that, I'm planning on some long-ish break (a month or so), will probably involve some work, but not too much - and that will also be something unrelated to what I've been doing so far. It's the most uncharacteristic thing I've done in a long time (not working), and I feel excited about the break.
I'm guessing I will make some pretty big changes after the long-ish downtime, but that's a story for another time, another day. Of course, I don't plan to be completely disconnected - I will check my mail, Fb, and will keep tweeting whenever I can, and of course, will keep writing my little life stories :).

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1 comment:

Varsha said...

u go boy :P